Saturday, May 23, 2015

Fear As A Gift to God

Fear is part of life as I have found. Psalm 6 talks about fear and the distress which we find in the course of living. Psalm 6 speaks about when we reach the cliff edge of our abilities and our own limitations. More then limitations, we discover our own failures and faults. This Psalm answers my fears about my son’s surgery. I hate not knowing the immediate future and it makes my shake with terror. I left with going to God in prayer. 

When I contemplate the next few weeks, my sleep makes me weary, I wake with pains in my bones and then I am left asking the God of the Cross to be with me within the days of my cross. God is with me and stays with my family in the next few weeks and the rest of our lives. I wake and do my routines of working out and spending time with God. On Saturday, it is my day with my son and in these days I find Jesus in our play together. These are the moments that God gives me and I find comfort. Psalm 6 speak to bring all of my fears and failures to God and his being with me even in these.  
Psalm 6 To the leader: with stringed instruments; according to The Sheminith. A Psalm of David. 1 O Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger, or discipline me in your wrath. 2 Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am languishing; O Lord, heal me, for my bones are shaking with terror. 3 My soul also is struck with terror, while you, O Lord—how long? 4 Turn, O Lord, save my life; deliver me for the sake of your steadfast love. 5 For in death there is no remembrance of you; in Sheol who can give you praise? 6 I am weary with my moaning; every night I flood my bed with tears; I drench my couch with my weeping. 7 My eyes waste away because of grief; they grow weak because of all my foes. 8 Depart from me, all you workers of evil, for the Lord has heard the sound of my weeping. 9 The Lord has heard my supplication; the Lord accepts my prayer. 10 All my enemies shall be ashamed and struck with terror; they shall turn back, and in a moment be put to shame.

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